(3/40) LCK Envious

When I Am Envious

Dear God, I am aware of the fact that I am never envious of someone who makes less
money than I do; has children who are less beautiful or talented than mine are; or who has a
worse golf score than I have. My envy is always directed toward someone who has something I
want, but lack. It seems to me that my envy is really nothing more than covetousness. A form of
greed. I want it all. I want what I already have and more. It isn't just that I lack something it is
that what I lack someone else already possesses and I want it. It is not clear to me whether I
want it because they have it or whether it is because I simply want it. I am not sure I want it so
that they will have less or whether I want it so I will have more. 0 Lord, my prayer to you is
that you will restore in me a feeling of contentment. These envious feelings are robbing me of
my contentment. Help me to rid myself of my desires for what others have so I can more fully
enjoy the abundance of what I already have. I know for certain the price I am paying for
wanting more is not worth the pain I am feeling for wishing for it. Lead me to a satisfaction that
would never wish for someone else to possess less just so I could possess a little more.